Looking back, there are many things I have regretted doing and not doing in my life so far.
There is no one regret I still remember so vividly and feel pierced so deeply whenever I reminisce about it other than the time I was with you.
Even though it lasted for a relatively short time, I have learnt much; to love is to give and that love is unconditional.
Y'know thinking about it sometimes you gain and learn more in the long term after suffering certain 'losses'.
Life's like that, it gives you a good hard kick in the groin and then helps you up again in a certain way.

It's been almost a year now.
It's like I've lost all my capacity for love.
I think it's alright.
But everytime I think harder and deeper I feel this hole in me. A weird void in my being.
I must be thinking too much.

I really hate depending on fate.
everything is predestined? I'd love to think that's bullshit.
You make your own luck.
But I'm beginning to think that it's kinda undeniable, at least for my case it is(or is it(?)).

Things that I've not done hurts me a great deal too.
Whether it teaches me and whether I learn from it is another different matter altogether.
You know it's pointless thinking,' If i'd done this then this wouldn't have happened.' etc etc.

To be happy in life, you make decisions and never look back.
Now That's the way to LIVE.

But it's a naive take to life isn't it?
You have to weigh your decisions, look to predict the outcomes and the backlashes if any.
Simply put, never look back in shame or regret and always look forward with hope and ambition.
Either that or you fail in life.

haha i'm so harsh.